I think my boyfriend is gay
I have been wit this person for 8 yrs now.. Helping him fight his addiction and being his punching bag. hoping when he come out he will really show me the genuine love tat he think he is giving me.. Through his addiction he would do anything to know where I am at.. Tell me he loves me but don't trust me bcsuse he think I'm cheating even though I'm not.. I did everything I could to make him trust me and also not letting everyone else see his ugly side.. And tat is every night when I have to fight the demon.. And morning comes is I'm sorry I love u.. Waiting till 5 yrs later now.. After 4 months of him finally becoming sobber.. He changed.. Doesn't look me the same.. Hasn't even tell me how hot I am without a joke.. Always asking me how I think he looks.. Spending a lot of time wit one guy friend.. He always so happy to see this person and everyday the same time they are together. and when he leaves its sooo weird like he done something wrong.. The shirt he wore before is different or he will have something different on.. For about an hr.. He would sit there and stare away.. Not saying a word to me. see I be upstair while they be downstair.. At one time I even heard them saying I love you to each other.. Im in doubt.. Although the sigh are there.. He would snot look me in the eye anymore and just enjoy this person company and do anything even pick a fight to be wit him.. The game yea rite what an excuse.. I didn't at first love him.. But hoping tat when he sobber up he would love me so much because he was wrong fornor trusting me.. He hardly call when I use to him calling me every 30 min wondering where I'm at.. He hardly look at me without a smirk.. Sex ha? Sooo weird like he has to work really hard to give it.. Fantasing.. Although I have scream and yell in anger of him not want ing to be wit me.. And stiill has this person there listening and he still stay.. Who
Does tat.. Im confuse and how do I get the prove. its right under my nose.. How sad tat someone can betray you after you worked sooo hard to save them and keep their lies hidden.. I have sacrifice my happiness for him.. Hoping he will love me for that..