Really depressed after breakup from toxic relationship. I had tried everything but it was never enough she was always negative towards me and her life. I had to see a therapist over her and been so lonely lately feel that its all my fault but deep down inside my heart that I know I tried all I could with no support.

Congratulations on getting yourself out of a bad situation. You are probably a little stuck on what to do next. Just reach out to family and friends, pursue your hobbies, make plans so you always have something to look forward to, and this time will pass. You will meet someone who's more prepared for the relationship you want and need.

As for the depression, there's a lot you can do to get past it. Medication can be really helpful to get you over the hump in the short term. Also, I have found when I've struggled with anxiety and depression that it's really helpful to have rules for myself. I am always showered and dressed, even on weekends, no later than 10 am. I leave the house every day, get in my car and go somewhere, if only to the grocery store. I always plan something with a friend so there's something on my calendar to look forward to. Even little things like making sure the dishes are done and put away, my bed is made when I get up in the morning, and my home is generally clean and pleasant - they all help. If you're feeling depressed, go do something physical even if you have to force yourself. Walk a few blocks, or go for a bike ride. Start a project - fix something in your house, or start writing a book, or sign up to help with a Habitat for Humanity project. Go donate blood. Just keep doing things that are worthwhile, and you'll find that when you're life is full, you will feel that you have a full life.

Don't go back to a bad relationship - it will just postpone your happiness.

Changing your normal lifestyle routine should help, sticking to the same one will remind you of your ex in many ways. What I meant by changing your routine doesn't require you to drastically change everything you do, changing the small things helps, like what was suggested, get out of the house more often do anything you feel like! It will help you get over her, and when she coincidentally see's how much you have changed into a better person, she will regret breaking up with you! Not saying that you weren't already a great boyfriend for her!

Dw you'll find the right one who will treat you right one day!