Originally Posted by
dontknownuthin
I'm not a big believer in "spirit" but I have had experiences in the past when lights have gone on in my home, and off, for no apparent reason. I looked into what this is suposed to mean per people who believe more in spirits and so on. I learned that most believe that lights being turned on and off and so on are generally the spirits of people we loved who have passed, and who want us to know they are looking over and love us. I would consider it a blessing, and not worry about it.
As for your hardships, just know that happens to everyone in life. Relationships can be difficult and you can probably sort out why yours have been so difficult in therapy. It doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you, but you can figure out what you can do differently to either be a better partner, or perhaps find a better partner if you are choosing people who are not commited to you.
Best wishes.