Hey. Everyone,I have a boyfriend been with him for 2years and he goes on swingers sites looking for girl/gays/TV/TS.. he beats me up calls me fat lazy cow and says woman like me are there for men like him 2 give a baby and leave you he sleeps with his. Ex h has blackbeRry messager and he has her on the plus many other girls we never talk because it ends up in argument and I'll get hit or have a cursing of my life time and now I'm pregnant he has left me and I don't know what to do I love him but I know he don't love me help me with and awswer that will make me strong I feel every so weak I feel like. Killing myself I feel no worth I hate the morning because I'll have 2 get up I eat junk food I hate like I can't remember when I've been happpy help me