Hi,for about a long time now I've been dealing with very intrusive and bad thoughts. Im 13, in the 8th grade and a Christian. I've been dealing with this for about almost a whole year. I went through depression earlier in life but after my doctor apointment I've been better.

This thoughts give me stress daily. I get headache but not daily. My heart beats rapidly and I feel like crying. All of these thoughts have to deal with one subject not many. I haven't told my parents cause I'm terrified of what they'd think since this is a VERY big deal for me. Some of the things about the thoughts I will not be telling you about because I'm so embarresed. I usually count from 10 down or instanly think "STOP" to calm my thoughts down. It works but only a tiny bit.

These thoughts just won't budge and my depression and thoughts about killing myself are all coming back...

Time to see the doctor again and probably a counselor at least once a week.

Most likely depression again, no it does not sound like OCD and please stop tryng to solve every yourself, You tell your parents, they get you back to see the doctor and you deal with this

It is time to see the doctor again, and possibly have your medication adjusted or changed.