Hello,

I am 23 years old from Europe, you may say young. In the last 9 months I was together with a girl and it was... it was amazing, we travelled a lot, visited lots of countries in the near, made such a strong connection between us that I never thought it is possible. Same for her, as far as I can tell she was happy with me shee enjoyed to spend her time with me, she has lots of friends and prefers to go out with them normally, but when we were together and their friends called her sometimes we went together, but most of the times she lied so she could spent all the time with me. I couldn't ask for more, we also spent 2 weeks together 24/7 , just the two of us, no family, no friends, in my homecountry. In this 2 weeks we didn't fight (just a bit, but these lasted for max 10 minutes) we definitely had the time of our lives. It was amazing, even though I am young I know that I could live with this girl. She also felt the same, she told me she changed her principals because of me and no one ever mad her happy as I did and no one was able to get so close to her as me, and I can tell exactly the same.

Her visum expired so she flied back to her country ( which is 9000 km / 5600 miles away), but she plans to come back in 0,5-1 year, to work or to study, she doesn't care. She would leave her family and friends just to be with me. The goodbye was horrible, but OK, she went home 2 weeks ago and we talk everyday at least once through Skype (once we chatted 5 hours).

But...
Yesterday I noticed something is not okay, and I asked her what's wrong. She told me before she came Europe, she had a boyfriend, and she loved him but they broke up because of she's going and her boyfriend was like her, not so good with relationships so they cancelled everything. In our relationshp I can notice that she doesn't have that much romanticness, sometimes I need to be really patient, but I take it because I love her truly, and its okay for me. I do every effort to make her happy and keep in touch with her and to speak every day the emotions won't fade. She told me, that she still loves her ex... but not as much as she loves me.

This is the point where I need help, I cannot love 2 persons at the same time, for me it is easy: I love someone fully with all my energies and emotions or not. I cannot understand how can someone love 2 persons. She told me she still has feelings for him but she wants me. But she is afraid what if she meets with this guy? I am afraid too, I know how chemistry works and if these two meet... even she has no idea what will happen, so she is trying to avoid him. If she comes back to me, its OK, because my love and the distance will fade away the other guy I'm pretty sure, but she comes back in 1 year! Lots of things can happen.

She always tells me to go out and try to have fun with girls... this is was annoys me the most, I cannot even think about other girls. She has the biggest heart (too big as it turns out) I have ever seen and she is definitely not like the girls I used to date. I love her with all her mistakes, there's no such a thing that I don't love about her. I really believe she's "The One" for me, and she also tells me that she never ever think that someone could love her so much like me.

I planned to visit her in December, to see her and refresh the emotions, to get strength for me and for her, even though the ticket for xmas is extremely expensive. I don't know what to do, please help me somehow, I hope someone can understand it, I cannot even ask the right question to you. I tried to explain the situation and the feelings as they are, but I know its hard to get for outsiders, still I ask for your advice. Sorry for my english, I tried to be as clear as I can.

Thanks in advance!