I have a strange situation. There was this girl I really liked and was attached to in high school. When I graduated high school I just forgot about this girl for a while but then when it started getting cold again it reminded me of school and I started feeling like I should still be there around her. I started becoming really lovesick and it lasted for months. I would never stock anyone and that wasn't my intention but I still had some friends who were still going to the school so I visited with them a few times and went to a few activities and I saw this girl again after many months. Then the school year ended again and I lost interest but its come back again recently and I can't get this off my mind. Its to hard to just let go of the past. My close friends and some people in my family have said just let it go but its not that easy by any means. I feel like she should still be in my life. My life feels empty without this girl. At night is when it becomes its worst. Since its beginning to cool down and the whether is changing its reminded me of high school and last year when I longed for this girl and now I am again. I've tried to get a therapist but I just don't have the money. I don't want anyone else I know to know how serious I feel so I decided to go online. People have suggested me talking to her but I'm way too afraid. I've tried getting a job there at the school but that didn't work. This girl lightens my mind. I don't care what people have to say or think but she is very special to me for some reason and she is like the light in my life, again I don't care what people online think of me for saying this, its just the truth I just want to know what I can do to end the depression and the suffering. Sorry the message is so long. If you feel like giving negative answers then don't answer. Thanks a lot!

It does strike me as a little odd that you have lost interest two summers in a row, and then the interest comes back in the fall. It almost sounds like it isn't the girl so much as high school in general, and the lack of fun and social life you had there. I take it you are working and not in college? It's harder to meet people, and old friends drift away. Plus she must be at least 2 years younger than you if she's still there, and that makes it even harder at your ages. She's got a whole school full of boys to choose from, and your interests just aren't going to be the same.
So... can you tell us about your life now, what you are doing for work, who you are living with, what you do in your spare time? Having a fuller life is generally the cure for unrequited love.

I see that you won't call her, you will not address it and either move ahead of put a end to it.

So if you won't forget her and won't go after her, then there is nothing left but to be miserable and think about her every night as you have no other social life.

Only you can decide to move on with life.

I'm working fulltime at Mc.Donalds. I live at home but I don't have any friends I see. I want to talk to this girl but I'm too scared and I'm afraid she'll think I'm a weirdo. I enjoy running, video games, and writing in my spare time. I don't spend time with anyone, when I get back from work everyone's in bed and when I leave its early afternoon and nobody's home. My brother and I used to hang out a lot but he moved to California. I guess you could say that I do miss both high school and this girl. Work life just isn't the same at all but what can I do about it? Its going to be the way it is forever now. I don't go to school right now either, so there's my info guys

I can understand that you miss the social life of high school. I can understand that you have a dream of this girl, sort of a symbol of what you wish you had. Maybe you are afraid to speak to her because you would rather keep the fantasy alive than the reality of being shot down?
But I don't agree that it's going to be the same forever. I'm 65, and I couldn't possibly have imagined all the things I've done when I was your age. And I'm a college dropout of the 60s, so I can't claim a career. I did learn job skills over the years (at about 30 different jobs) despite that, and would suggest that you can do the same. You write intelligently enough, and I would have said that even if you hadn't said that you write in your spare time. Keep at the writing. Consider learning a trade, at a technical school like IIT Tech. Do it now while your parents still let you live at home. Join the Coast Guard. Take the Post Office exam when it next arrives near you, or an EMT/paramedic course. TONS of training that takes a short time and doesn't cost much or anything at all.