Originally Posted by
JaeBeam
Update... Going thru a lot of heart ache. Having her stay in the condo was not a good idea as far as healing is concerned. but it was good for some of the decisions that had to be made regarding belongings and carving out some space in our immediate social circles.
The frustration got to her on Friday, and she ed me out over some miscommunication. That actually helped move me emotionally towards wanting this over and done with, instead of this limbo where I'm pining and hoping for a 'stay of execution'.
This site seems to provide all the tools you need to muddle your way thru the grief of a breakup.
Still have no freaking idea how to rekindle a spark in a relationship. The more I talk about it, the more it seems to really be on the person who lost the spark to figure it out. And figuring that out requries a bit of emotional maturity and self knowledge...
I'm working on my attitude, trying to realize there was and is nothing I could have done to stop the breakup. I've been going out with friends constantly, and I visit my family in 2 days for the memorial.
The ex has a lease, and is packing this week, so I'm staying out of the condo as much as possible. We agreed that she should stay in a friends house as of Sunday. So the last 2 nights I'm alone. but I think it is easier than being in the same bed. I'm starting to realize she
can't console me, but rather stirs me up whenever we interact.
At my mom's request, I started therapy to try and get a better handle on my sense of self worth. A little spendy, this may have to get cut from the budget, but I have about $300 left in my insurance fund that has to get spent regardless. It was nice having a professional assure me that yep, breaking up sucks and its not your fault :)