I'm gay and I have fallen in love with my co-worker. Help!
He is 45 years old, single, never married, has no kids. I am 27 years old. What I mean when I love him is; I want to be with him for the rest of our lives, I would take care of him, cuddle with him, kiss him, protect him, feed him, help him, never part with him.. etc. Why I haven't made a move yet? I am masculine, I act straight, I do talk about women when I'm near him (I do like women with long hair and long legs, but I do know that I am not bi-sexual) I pretend to be this guy who is not interested in him because I'm afraid to show how I feel about him. I have tried moving on many times. I've been feeling this way everyday since the 2nd month when I started working with him (we work in separate areas,) and it's almost close to 2 years now and I still love him. I drive around the area where he lives just to see a glimpse of him when we're not at work. I just know that he doesn't have any feelings for me after all of these months that have passed by. I really love him. What should I do? I tried looking for other jobs, but found none. My employer really likes me because he told me so, even if I found another job I know that my boss would do his best for me to not leave.