Long story short, I have been pretty lonely. I have a lot of people that surround me but just have me as one of their advice givers or someone to be with- I'm just a convinient person that they want. They come to me when they have problems, and I listen and if they ask for advice I give it to them. But I expect too much, I believe they'll be aRound whenever I need a shoulder to lean on. And I'm absoloutley wrong. I have been called at 3 in the morning for bf&gf problems and what do I do? I answer and act like I'm not bothered. I listen and I'm there. And what do I get in return? Nothing. I send a "hey" text just to chat, and 2 days later thry text back, but for a problem. People always see me as a happy person and I'm always smiling and laughing. But I have gotten to a point where I want to break down and I WANT TO CUT. I have never done it, and I know it will become addicting. I have been resisting this for a long time. I also believe that I am like this because of my ex best friend. She was the daylight to days, and she was my unbiological sister. Until she moved away and forgot about me. I have always tried to talk to her but never responded and would update her Facebook status. Pathetic. I, I don't understand. If I was given the option to die, I will. But would never do it myself. I just want to cut. Never done it. I need someone. And there's no one. My other best friend, she's a sweetie. But I don't want to upset her with this, I love her too much for her to know how I feel.

Cutting yourself is deffinately the wrong path to go down,maybe hit a punching bag or something like that for a few solid minutes.If people are using you to help them with their problems they see you as easy to tke that particular advantage of so the next time someone calls you a 3am then tell them shove off and let you have your beauty rest.That is silly ,having people call you at such an hour.Don't be the problem solver all the time let them figur it out themselves

You say you have no one to talk to then you mention your other best friend but you say you don't want to worry her. You have people to talk to, but you won't do it. Why?

Stop being everyone's everything. Stop taking phone calls at 3 in the morning. No one is making you do this.
Cutting yourself is just stupid especially if you know it is addictive. You are wanting attention, well that is negative attention.
Talk to the friends you have.