In love with best friends ex, since forever?
So erm basically, I've loved this boy for ages. Not a stupid love but one where there generally hasn't been a day where I haven't thought about him (3 years nearly) I get butterflies when we speak, I light up inside when he pops up not to mention the thought of him makes me happy. Were in the same circle of friends, no one knows about my situaiton as I don't trust many people. We had a little thing a while ago but nothing more. THEN, because of my actions, my best friend got talking to him, he fell in love with her, she did eventually... resulting them getting together for 6 months. Yes I was devastated. They been apart for about 3 weeks, he hates her. Anyway, the problem is I was with him this night, we laid there and cuddled it was everything I dreamed of. For a bit of entertainment, we all played truth or dare, I was dared to snog him so I did. No one knew for a week, as we said it would all remain a secret, his ex/my 'bestfriend' who's always had the better of me, found out and now hates me... what should I do I'm completely confused?