I really love her, please help
Hi guys. This is nikk. I love a girl for few years and now we are best friends. In the beginning I didn't even know her, then we became friends, good friends and then best friends.
From the beginning she knew that I love her, in fact at that time we stopped talking for few months but then we again started talking as she said she is guilty about that she had hurt me, and she wants me as a friend in her life.
But day by day, my feelings for her are getting stronger. She says that its not like that she doesn't like me, but she has feelings for no one, and she is not willing to get into a relationship right now. She believes in love, but not these boyfriend-girlfriend relationships as they complicate things. In fact I also used to think like this until I met her.
She also has two more best friends, a guy and a girl. The girl is just as an acquaintance to me, but that guy used to be a very good friend once. It seems to me that she is more close to him, than me, and she gives more importance to him. (May be this is the reason he is not that much good friend anymore) And this really pisses me off. Sometimes it looks like the whole god damn world is important to her than me.
I really love her, and if it continues to be like this, I'll keep waiting and one day she will fall for someone and go with someone else. I also told her this, but she says how can I be so sure about it and I should not think what will happen tomorrow. And she won't leave me alone.
I don't know if she loves me or not, but I really love her. I am like one who cannot easily express his feelings, and I am too possessive and insecure (might be just because she is not in my life right now and I fear I will lose her to some one else)
I don't do those all good sweet things for her as I think I might irritate her as if a girl whom I don't like do to me, I get really pissed off.
Can't she stop talking to me if she doesn't feel the way I do, or she doesn't like me. Why did she even talk to me again.
Please help. How can I make her mine.. or what shall I do?
PS - it's a bit complicated and a bit too long. Sorry about that as I cannot further summarize it.