I have been dealing with depression, self harm, suicide, and eating problems. Around last year end of the school year I began to develop an eating habit of restricting my food. I would go 3-4 days without eating and then get mad at myself for eating so I would go longer. I ended up not eating for 4-6 days. When I would not eat for 5 days I would only allow myself to ea a cracker or 2 and that would have to last me another3-4 days. When I was 8 I was raped and when my mom found out she denied that it happened and that was my first suicide attempt. My second attempt was around 3 months after the first attempt. The second one was more serious I took 56 Advil's and then another 17 an hour after the first 56. I am not proud of it but I some times( more often then not) think everything would be better if I was dead. I cause my mom and dad stress my dad had a stroke and wanted to leave my mom and she blamed me for the fights. I began purging around that time. Now I am purging twice to three times a day. I am on a 200-300 calorie a day diet. I am trying to reduce my food intake so I won't purge. 2 weeks ago I started using laxatives but I don't think I am considered bulimic. When I binge I cut after to try to teach myself a lesson. I know I need someone to talk to about this but I don't think I am or would even be considered Bulimic. Please give me your opinion and advice thank you.
