My doctor thinks I have Asperger's. I don't really believe her?
Okay, well. I'm 18. Ever since I was young I have had a craving for facts and numbers! I love researching random things especially countries (populations, cities, languages. etc... ), history, you name it. I've heard that a lot of people with aspergers have this trait, which could really be normal for all I know. I'm very moody, I'm very socially awkward. I'm either very loud and annoying, or I'm very quiet and closed. I say a lot of things that I really shouldn't but I don't realize it until afterwards. I have a history of mood swings, I have TERRIBLE anxiety. I'm always anxious about something and a lot of it is stupid things. I often have a lot of obsessions. It changes from time to time, but when I'm obsessed with one thing it's ONE thing. It's all I want to talk about. I do a lot of thinking with my eyes, I can solve certain things by looking at my surroundings, etc... some people say I'm not good at listening to people. This I find to be true. I HATE sitting down face to face and maintaining a conversation, especially with my doctor, etc.. I LOVE having a fixed schedule. When things change I get upset, anxious and possibly angry. Sometimes I have a hard time showing sympathy. This really makes me upset though, because I'm always afraid this is a sign I'll become a terrible person in my future. When most people are crying, I usually can't cry. No matter how hard I try.. barely if any tears drop. People always tell me I'm really smart, and how they think I use more than 10% of my brain. All in all, I understand she's a trained professional but that doesn't make her right. I believe she may have fabricated this so that she can get me on even more medicine, so she/drug companies make more money. Does it sound like I have aspergers?