My dad committed suicide by hanging himself a few years ago and on that night I was In a different country I had a dream that I was being strangled, I have no spiritual history. But since this I have felt like a part of me died with him and I have moments of intence anger within myself, What makes it worse is that I hadn't spoken to him for a few years, Because he walk out on the family years before this, My family look to me as a pillar of strength, I don't know if I can keep it up?