Hi,
I and my boyfriend got committed to each other nearly 11 months back! Nearly within a week after, he broke up with me due to a lot of misunderstandings! I was angry at him for almost a week and later talked to him! But he refused to talk to me! Never answered my calls and hurt me so much! I started apologizing for things I did not do! In fact he was the one to break up!

Next day was college re-opening! I could not stand it watching him so happy with me crying all the while! Two days later we had an argument! I blew my top and we both shouted at each other! My friends left me! He forgot me! But I was so very alone and could never get over him in spite of all his harsh words and rudeness!

Then two weeks later I attempted suicide! I jumped off from running van! I was hurt very badly! Two stitches in my head! Lots of injuries! But I survived! All my friends came to see me! But he did not! Maybe then I should have realized he did not care! Then after nearly 5 months he came to me with his friends convinced me that he will take care of me! He will never leave me and blah blah blah! Things were good for a few days then again a problem arose!

For past one month I have been just crying receiving nothing but harsh words! I blew my top last Sunday and it was me who broke up in anger! He said I was TORTURE to him and if he marries me surely I will kill him and his family! That hurt me so much and that was the reason I broke up! I thought I could live without him in my life! BUT I AM NOT ABLE TO! Whatever I say or do won't bring him back! I am very depressed and I feel worthless with no one to listen to me!

PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME

Thank you

It seems like you are a very emotional person!! With lots of exclamation marks! In your post!! Are your hyper emotions and extreme reactions to problems the things that are pushing him away?

I think you are emotionally out of control and overwhelming to those around you. I hope you get the proper guidance to find the path to being cool, calm, and collected and in control, so you will not be given to words and actions that bite you in the BUTT later.

Impulsively acting out of anger is NOT a good thing. Get help if you need it, like a school counselor or parent, then your life will be a lot more manageable. Then you can TALK to people and NOT scare the hell out of them.

Get some counseling.