I feel like I screwed up my life.
I know it sounds bad that I feel this way but I just can't help it. I have been in a relationship with a man for about 4 years now. He has a child who has just turned 8. We have all ways got along fine. Now I have had a baby and it feels like a lot has been taken away from me. The step child's mother has been making it really hard since my child was born and upsetting my partner. As a result I feel like my child and I are second best. It has gotten to a point where I despise the step child (that I hate myself for). On top of that I feel like my child is going to suffer in the future due to the messiness of the situation. Now all I wish is that I found someone without any baggage so that I could have at least had the chance of a picture perfict family. Why Do I feel like I stuffed it up of my child and I.