After 18 months of dating I left for the armys basic training and I wrote hm the er over 70 letters and on week 8 received a break up letter... I later found out she was cheating on me two weeks after I left and on week four I called her and she told me she loved me. I can't get her out of my mind and its been almost a year since I got discharged for depression. I actually just quite the army cause I wanted to get back to her and hold her in my arms. And it's the worst decision I ever made my brothers in arms are dying and I feel guilty for not being over in afganistan with them protecting them. I love my ex still but can't burn her out of my mind what to I do?

Just move on man think about if you are already married and she does this to you, once a cheater will always be one

Build a wall, break it down, then walk through it, think of it as beginning a new story of your life