Right so for about a year I've fallen for a girl. She's the only person who comes off to me as not absorbed in the ridiculous of high school, and is quite similar to me. She's probably the only person I've truly "loved" so to speak. Now at first I was just a nice guy, and friendzoned her like a boss (bestfriendzoned might I add). Later, I figured out my stupidity and started cutting off communication with her for a while to defriendzone the situation. To my surprise it worked.

Summer time now and we're basically getting together, pretty well established that we like each other. But now, for no reason at all, I want her to leave me. While she's singing love songs and being happy to talk to me, I keep wishing she'd think of me as inadequate and move on. This clearly is not normal for me.

I don't even have self esteem issues. I feel awesome 99 days out of 100, and I have a great social life, but with this it's somehow different. I'd guess it's because I'm not a slick smooth talker or whatever, but if I really loved her wouldn't I want more than anything to try anyway? Why do I keep thinking she should stop wasting her time with me? It's as if a different me is saying it, thinking this. She doesn't even think there's a problem, and yet my mind is convincing me there is, when I don't even know what.

Any ideas as to what is going on with me?

Perhaps you think she can do better than you, as if you're not worthy of love. You could also believe that this is too good to be true, and deep down are terrified of having your heart broken. Or, you just may not be head over heals in love with her.

There are many things that may contribute to this... It really is hard to say without knowing you.

You may also not want to lose yourself completely to her. Sometimes people have a great thing going, and feel the need to want it to end so they don't get their hearts broken. Almost like getting their hopes up.

Or another possibility might be that you just aren't interested in her anymore because you have her. There's no more challenge.

Simple ~ You are young and emotionally immature.
You are focusing way too energy on relationships and over-thinking
Things to the extreme. Usually when people extend that much energy
Focusing on one part of their lives, they are actually trying to avoid
Thinking of other issues. Do you have unresolved issues with your
Family? Are you where you want to be education & career wise?
These are the issues that require your attention and energy.
When you are comfortable with all other aspects of your life,
The relationships aspect will fall into place naturally.
Good luck to you.

Sometimes the having isn't as exciting as the getting, but that's no excuse for leading her on. You probably, unintentionally have done that already. You better give this some thought, before you make an even worse mistake, and play with some one else's feelings.

@enigma: Well it's definitely not because I've lost interest, but you've helped a lot, more than you know. Thank you, things are looking better.

@Beth: I've done well to keep any problems out of my life, because they cause too much stress and aren't worth worrying about. However my mind does over analyze things greatly, most commonly when trying to understand how my own mind works. I can see how this would transfer into relationships. Thanks for the input, trying to think about things less and just let them flow naturally.