How do I overcome my guilt?
Had a boyfriend for about 3-4 months & I just recently had to let him go for my own reasons.
The foundation was sex & a little bit of friendship, but we didn't really know each other yet, you know? After about a month of fooling around, HIS idea was the established title of "BF-BF" (yes, this was a same sex relationship). I'd never been in a legitimate relationship before, and neither had he. But we gave it a try.
There were issues throughout. I had to sneak around (college dorm) to spend intimate time with him, to sleep with him, to be affectionate with him. It was a "low-key" relationship through & through.
My feelings for him also reared their ugly heads, showing that I didn't have as much love for him as much as he did for me.
The final part to this that I never shared was that I cheated. I cheated on him. But for the record, twas an ex, not a stranger. Nonetheless, I was unfaithful, and I've branded myself as a cheater. And another month (post-cheating) of low communication between us had brought us to the point where I finally had to cut him loose.
I've never told him... nor do I know if I should after the fact. I doubt that he had much closure after I told him most of the other reasons that I had to break up with him. He's 23 & I'm 20.
What should I do now... I feel like a dying, low-down human being. How do I get over it?
