Boyfriend of two years cheated
Hi, please help me. My boyfriend of 2 years cheated on me. I am not proud of having gone through his phone but in two years I never did that and this time I just had a feeling. I confronted him and for a whole day instead of keeping silent I kept bombarding him with angry texts and calls making him feel like crap. At first he seemed to want to be with me after I found out but after all my fighting he said that he wanted a week break. During that week he texted me constantly and when it was over he just basically shut down didn't pick up his phone, and then told me over text goodbye because he is too embarrassed to face me. Two years and he ends it with a text?? I feel like its my fault that I gave him such a hard time and that I made him shut down and not want to deal with my drama. What can I do? I told him that I got past my anger and that I love him in my heart and forgive him but he kept saying that I can do better and that he can't say goodbye to me face to face because he is too embarrassed... even after I basically begged him to allow me to forgive him. Here is the catch: he has not trusted me for a long time because a year ago he caught me cheating emotionally with a good friend. I did it because my boyfriend never cared or paid attention to me at that time and I was very young and needy. When he found out I begged and begged for forgiveness cried and never did something like that again. What can I do? Ps. Despite our constant fighting before the whole cheating thing (which I'm sure lead him to want a break even more) we have had great moments and he has been a wonderful guy at times. Treated me well and always bought me things, but we had lots of little arguments and problems along the way. I am not ready to sy goodbye.