I've been with my friend for more than 6 months now. I've known him for over a year. We have a special relationship, you could say that we are basically "-buddies". We end up having sex at least once a week and we've arranged it that way. We've never actually sat down and talked about it, it just kind of happened and we both understand that its supposed to be no strings attatched. And that we are only sleeping with each other, there is no having sex with other people. But that's where the simplicity ends. The first month we started sleeping together was the end of the semester for our school. So I went home and we figured that, that was the end of it. I was fine with it I never thought of him as more than anything but friends. Well over the summer he ends up being "friends" with another one of my friends. We weren't close or anything but we were still friends. Well he calls me afterwards and appoligizes saying that even though he wasn't my boyfriend it was still wrong. I really didn't care we were just friends and he was a big boy, I can't tell him where to put his . Well he continue's to sleep with her during the summer until a few weeks before I get back. He was never nice to her though he was always rude and nasty towards her, I know this because both she and he have told me so. But she still stuck around I get back and tell him that if he wants anything to do with me he has to pick me or her. Well he picks me and tells me that he used her all summer and she meant nothing to him and completely cuts her out of his life. It was really ugly too, she was completely hurt he was very mean to her and he always was I don't understand why she was with him. With me though he's not like that, I'm not just saying this, even our friends agree that he treats me extremely better than he had to her. Well we started up in September again and made an agreement that it would only be the two of us. We were not going to have sex with kiss or do anything with anyone else. If one of us did then that would be the end of what we have. I never had any type of feelings for him it was strictly platonic. The sex is always great, well most of the time =). And up until a little while ago I never wanted more. Now I'm always confused. Sometimes I think he wants more because he always tells me stupid things like "claim your " or "get ur priortys strait" or " my oppinion should mean more than anyone else's" and " i should be high on ur list". So yea the thing is I don't trust him, I'm always afraid he's going to just up and leave me like he did to her but he's said that " I would never do that to you because you dont' deserve that, and I care way to much about u to do that to you". And lately I've been acting a little strange I get defensive with him, only because I'm always afraid he's going to catch on and know that I'm starting to grown an "attatchment" and just drop it. I really love him as a friend and I don't know what I want, and he's asked me why I've been acting so weird the last couple of weeks and I just told him nothing. I don't know how to talk to him and more importantly I don't know what to say to him. Yea I know its long and if u actually finish reading... any advice is helpful...
