I have been dating this guys for 5 months, sure our relationship had our ups and downs, but when we got along we were the cutest together. I trusted him with everything, there was not a secert about each other that we didn't know.
I felt like this guy was the one.. our relationship was at the point were I know how much I cared about him, and I felt like it was time to show him that, so I had sex with him, he was my first. I wanted to wait for sex.. but for some reason I really wanted too, an I had a feeling that I should. So I did.
From this day.. him and I have been broken up with him for 6 weeks.. I still truly love him with all my heart. I tried getting him back.. I send him long messages about how I feel. But he tells me to off.. or that he hates me.. and to go die..
I honestly don't know how to take it? What to do about it? If I should keep trying? Move on? What..
If you have any advice on any of this.. please help.

He doesn't hate you guys can get freaked out by that kind of clingy action it puts them in a defensive mode. If you want the full truth 90% of girls take a long time to get over their first give it time take 1 or 2 months to yourself relax then if you still feel this way try to talk to him then but be to the point and quick this should do the trick you didn't say why you broke up so its hard to say what you should really do but this seems like the best option. Goodluck :)

We said we broke up because he doesn't like me, and because he was tried of my..
But then I found out.. he thought I liked another guy.. so we broke up.

That's all I needed... Hes scared of his own emotions think of this situation as you being a pin and he's a baloon you need to deflate him not pop him. Catch my drift 100% guarantee to work

Thank you ill try it :)
And if anyone else has more advice I could use that as well :)!

The WORST thing you can do after a breakup is beg and plead with the person to take you back. It only pushes them further away and reaffirms their decision. I know it's super difficult and you feel extremely emotional and hurt but the best thing to do is say OK, offer best wishes and don't fight it. Absolutely no contact is the best thing you can do. That will give you both time to see if you miss each other and want to give it another shot. If you give someone space it only gives them room to come closer. He doesn't hate you. When anyone gets that erratic it's a good indicator they're struggling and suffering themselves. It's a win win situation for you. When you sever ties it gives you time to reflect and heal. If he doesn't come back then you have your answer. Plus, you'll have moved on after enough time has passed.

Thank you :)