I raised my 3 children on my own when their father had a car accident and got post traumatic shock. When my youngerst was 6moths old he left with the kids all under 5. I was devastated and tried to help him ,I think I cried for 6 years, but gave them the best life could. Last yr I packed up and left syd with all my families belongings hoping they would come with me, I couldn't stand syd anymore..
Afetr arriving in QLd for 6 months I re lived a bank robbery I was in 32 yrs ago..
I was shattered and only having my son with meas my 17 yr old girl stayed with mum in syd and my 2o yr old won't talk to me... I know know ,after intense treatment and medication that I also had PTSD. I look back on my life and it was so hard for me, I probably over reacted with everything,. I love my children and went on IVF to have them... how can I re connect with her, no one will give me her phone no or address as they don't want her to upset me and said best to leave her alone, I cray everyday and have dreams about her... I love her please advise.. she is also engaged and may get married with out me,,

Perhaps just leave her alone for now.

I don't really understand, did the children ever live with you, you said their father took them and left you,? So what did you do, how often were you with the kids ?