Okay so last weekend I went to Ruidoso with my friends for my best friend's birthday. Upon leaving, me and my boyfriend (18) had a loving goodbye. He spoke of how much he would miss me and that I should hurry back to him and that he loved me. We have been together for 2 years. He has always really been the romantic loving type and I've always trusted him with more than I tell anyone else. We tell everyone that we are best friends who are in love. Well, the last night I was in Ruidoso (we only stayed two nights), he texted me and told me he was going to the drive in with a huge group of friends. I was fine with this and I called to tell him goodnight in case I fell asleep before he got done with the movie. He seemed strange on the phone so I asked "drive in sounds fun! Who's all going again?" and he responded telling me the same 7 or so people, two of which were girls. One of these girls (let's call her Amy) I had already had a weird feeling about. My boyfriend just liked to mention often how "cool" and "awesome" she was.. Whatever. But something about his response was off. He seemed extremely defensive. Call me paranoid, but I texted one of the girls who he told me was going and asked who was there. She told me it was only him (my boyfriend) his best friend, the girl I texted (who is his best friends on again off again ex) and Amy. I was bothered that he had clearly lied. I told him I didn't know why he lied and that I'd like it if he left. He said he couldn't do that and I was angry so I didn't speak with him for a while.
Me and my friends played a drinking game that night and I was a bit more intoxicated than I needed to be.. And I woke up the next morning to a phone call from him. He was breaking up with me. I asked what I had done wrong and he said "I've never been treated that bad in my life." I was so upset. And I still had to whole car ride home before I could even see him! Upon hanging up he said that in a week maybe he would call and arrange a date (WTH? ) and then maybe we would start over. He said "bye" and I said "bye I love you." and he said "I love you too." and I said "I know you do. Bye." and he said "bye, baby." talk about mixed signals.. On the car ride home I looked on my phone and found messages I vaguely remembered typing. I was mean to him. I cussed. And blew up his phone.
When I got back into town I told him I was drunk when I sent those and he said he had no idea and wouldn't have broken up with me if he had.. So I said "so we aren't broken up?" and he said "no I just need some time." from then on any time I bring up our relationship he says "I just need some time. You are still my best friend right?" and I want to scream "NO!" but I don't want to give up my only tie to him. I don't know what to do because the reason we broke up doesn't bother him anymore. I don't know why we are broken up. And Every time I call he briefly talks then says "oh gotta go bye." really fast without me being able to say anything. And sometimes he acts like he wants me to fight for him. He will say things like "use our good memories to your advantage in this." like it's a game! And he will also say "I've changed. Show me you've changed." and cryptic things like that!
It's been 4 days sense the breakup. I want him back, so so much. I've never been as happy as I was with him. I just don't know what to do. I love him. And I know he loves me cause he cannot just turn that off like a switch overnight. But he acts like he honestly doesn't give a crap and I'm someone he has to put up with. I'm so confused!
