I lost my boyfriend just 3 days ago. He was a victim of drowning. I was there not 3 feet from him. I can't go to sleep because when I shut my eyes, I'm in the water with him and I'm seeing him dying and I scream and scream. My people are so worried about me. And they should be because I have questioned why I am here and he is not. I keep reliving all the moments when we should have just left the water. But I looked at his smile, saw the love because we were doing something we both enjoyed - scuba diving. We were practicing with his rebreather equipment before our trip to Mexico in July 2012. But June 24,2012, he was taken from me. He was the expert of 15 years, me less than 1. I looked for all the signs that we were taught to look for. I didn't see any until too late and my Sweetie, my good man, my true love, is gone! Oh God! I don't see any beauty, any pain, I can't eat and friends and family are calling or over constantly. Ecause they worry I will harm myself. What can I do to ease this pain at all? Oh God, this pain is too deep and situation is too unfair!! What can I do?

The pain of losing someone is the worst pain of all. You're not alone in that grief.

There are a few things that I would highly urge you to do. Grief counseling, and counseling to help you with your survivors guilt.

I will tell you that this is not your fault. There was nothing you could do. I know it's hard to accept, and I know you feel that guilt, but there's no reason for it.

It's only been 3 days. The first few weeks, months, year, are the hardest.

One thing I can tell you that helped me a great deal. Whenever I thought about harming myself, or being better off dead, I thought of the people that I still had in my life, and what my death would do to them. Also, I thought of the people I'd lost, and what they'd want me to do. I know for a fact that they'd be very angry at me if I gave up on life just because I no longer had them in mine.

You will find the strength to go on. You will always have that love, and it will never go away, but you will find a way to carry on with life, and one day, all the memories you have of him will make you smile instead of cry.

But do get professional help. It helped me a great deal.

Hi, I lost my boyfriend 2 months ago in a car accident and still it feels so unreal. I wish I could say that the pain will go away but it doesn't in fact as each day passes by I feel worse because it gets more and more difficult to live without him. He was my love, my life, my sanity, my strength, my world, my everything. I wish I could be of assistance to you but God knows I try but this just won't go away, I feel like I am just passing time until I can with him again.

I lost my sweatheart on jun23rd a date that will haunt my brain forever god I don't know were we will find the strenth but I'm sure they will be keeping a cloe eye on us