Did I make the wrong decision?
Okay so I’m in this program and I live with 11 people for a year. We are all with each other 24 hours. And well I’m half way done with my term and me and this guy have gotten close, we cuddle together at nights and stay up all night talking. The problem is I really don't want to have a boyfriend and he kept bugging me how he will keep it a secret and won’t tell and I figured okay whatever.
So after a month of hanging out with him I decided to date him. I feel childish for being secretive. But I feel off about it now. I have this one guy on my team who is like my best friend. And my new boyfriend is now causing all this drama how he hates him and when I asked why he just said he was like he is just a jerk. I went to the movies with my friend and I got over text messages saying how my friend is just using me. So I talked about it with him and he said he was jealous. And when I said why he said because you’re always so happy to see him and you guys get along so well and are always doing stuff together and you don't do that with me.
And I have to say I do like my friend but not in that way. And it’s very true I get along so much better with my friend and I feel like I really only get along with my boyfriend when we are just one and one. I can't play around with him the same way. But I still don't like my friend that way. But my problem is I don't feel overly joyed to be with him and I don't know what I want.
Im not wanting a serious relationship but my new boyfriend does
But I still don't like my friend that way. But my problem is I don't feel overly joyed to be with by boyfriend and I don't know what I want. I feel weird when he texts me and mentions that I'm his girlfriend. But I felt perfectly fine when we weren't dating. He is trying to kiss me but before I go through with it I feel like I need to make a decision, cause me prolonging it is making things worst.
I've never had an official boyfriend ever and I feel like if its official things will get serious and he gets oddly jealous and is clingy and he texts me random things like I've been waiting for a girl like you to come into my life. Which freaks me out. And I told him that I feel like this relationship is more than likely going to crash and burn and that when it does he has to be normal with me and don't get all depressed and mad. And he only says ill prove it to you it won't. I just get mixed feeling and I really don't feel comfortable having a serious relationship and he is already saying I love u. Creepy? I don't know.
I can't really say leave me alone and I don't want to do that anyway but I don't need anything to be odd between us cause I'm stuck with him for 6 more months
