Hello I have been with my husband for 3 years dating 6 married. My husband is 34 always been a party boy, so was I when we meet and in my 20's. He has always drank till 5am and black outed peeing on thing in our house. This would happen a couple times a week. I hated it but did not confront him about it when he continued to do it after we had our daughter, who was born in 2009 with down sysndrome.
He has continued his out of control bindge drinking until this past NOvemeber when he said he would stop. He attended a couple AA meetings in December and said that he did not need or have a desire to drink so he did not need to go to them. He said he was just irresponsible and sellfish all these years. He made it through summer and now I am boring and do not like to do anything ( living with a alcoholic really drains the fun out of someone). No one thinks he has a drinking problem according to him b/.c he is the life of the party, although his brothers best friends thanked me for getting him to stop.
He know is hooked on moster drinks, he came home and acted really intoxicated off drinking to many of them. Last week he went to a concert with me and ended up drinking 2 monsters 3 beers in 2 hours after not eating all day and said there was nothing wrong with it after he acted drunk.I have anxiety attacks every time he goes out wondering is this going to be the time it will start again.
Also the kicker is he does sales for a beer company!!
I feel like the cycle is beginning again.
Do I stand by him because he has drank considerable less or do I take my beautiful daughter and get on with life and stop allowing him to drain the energy I could put on her?
I want to be married, I want to have more children, but I also want respect and I am starting to hate the person I have turned into. I am not one to yell and argue and putdown and I feel like his lask of respect has gotten me so bitter

He will drain you dry. He does not want help and you can't make him get it. Get some counseling yourself and leave.

He has no reason to change - you not only put up with his behavior, you still socialize with him AND brought a child into this relationship.

What were you thinking?

Yes, leave him - he has no reason to change.

He has the same problem as our deceased son (and the same age) I am sorry to say. We didn't even know ourson had a serious problem.
We were not financially connected to our son. He severely injured a young lady in a headon collision and he was above the legal limit on alcohol-unfortunately we had to learn that from the autopsy report.
If he is driving on those binges, you haven't seen anything yet I am sorry to say. If we had had connections like jt. Ownership etc-like you most likely do, we could have been bankrupted with lawsuits and lawyer fees.
It pains me to discuss this issue but maybe this is one way that some good can come out of a horrendous experience that we are still suffering from.
I read these kinds of alcohol -problem posts all the time and the driving is always the part that seems to get glossed over, or maybe I am just too sensitive to it.

No, you aren't too sensitive. We see these posts over and over. This and "how can I beat my drug/alcohol" test questions.

There was a similar situation in my family and there's no question I'm overly sensitive when it comes to attempting to beat the tests.