I slept with my best friend. Twice. ADVICE?
Okay, so me and my best friend hooked up twice. We met in 8th grade and I had a huge public crush on him. Freshman year it died away, and by sophomore year we became really close friends. Went on double dates, chilled, etc. now we're both in college and single. Both times sex was initiated by him, first time he freaked out, said it would never happen again. I was okay with that. We were at his family's summer house cleaning it and getting it ready for the summer. But then it happened again three weeks later. We haven't talked about what happened, but he was fine the morning after it happened the second time. The weeks in between everything was normal, and everything seems normal now. But I’m confused about how I feel, and I’m curious to how he might feel. Any advice?