How did you get your true love in your life, or someone that is (finally) get married to you for long years or until now ?

As someone who never experiences real love in life cause I really haven't found my man yet... I want to ask suggestions. Live in area where a lot people just still think as if they were in cave age. Not to insult anyone just this is what I really feel. I'm always shy and not open so much about my feelings. I would like to talk more about logic rather than feelings. I tend to show happiness rather my loneliness in real life.

I hate to be known feel lonely, never have boyfriend, want a boyfriend, I don't want anyone in real knows it. Cause it makes me embarrassed if they knew.

Another problem is...

I'm more interested to foreign men, why... cause this is already the chemistry I feel. This is just my likeness. No stereotype. Although I like more to foreign men.. I still don't like to pick anyone. So what should I do ?

I have job but decent payment not high. I maybe unsuccessful to compete with other women that are richer, more beautiful than me. But I always want to meet foreign men.

I have bad exp before I met foreign man maybe sounded he was most serious person but he asked sex by cam so I did not believe him.

Now, I'm not so open about myself anymore to anyone I met on internet unless if have met them in real.

What should I do ?

Thanks.