I lied to my crush about my experiences in the past
I have a huge crush on my neighbor, we were getting so close, I lied to him about having my first kiss with some guy, then it became a bigger lie, I told him that I did more, just to impress him. I felt ashamed about being prude, I'm 15 by the way a sophomore, he's a senior 17. I've known him since I was 4. I feel terrible, I don't knoe what to do, I've lied to him in the past, and when he gets mad, he ignores me for a few months! It kills me, I honestly would do anything for him. I just don't want him to feel like he can't trust me if anything happens in the future. He's currently dating a freshman, he basically chose her over me. But I still want him to be my first kiss and anything else. I've never felt this way before. I just don't know how to tell him that I lied. I love him. I can't function correctly if he doesn't talk to me. Please help!! I feel terrible!!