When I Was 7 years old my mam and dad got Divorced but after a few months they came back to each others , my mam used to Hit me really hard when ever I did any thing wrong , always shout at me and tell me that I am a loser , it was really disappointing that I hated her , Then when I was 9 my mam asked for Divorce again , they refused to tell me why but they used to fight all the time , My mam left Home and never came back and didn't leave a phone number or an address , her mobile is closed until this day and I don't know where she is , after some research I found out that my dad was cheating on my mam with a 24 or a 25 years old girl , I confronted him with it and he kept beating me until my left arm got broken , had 2 surgeries in it , after I healed he started to treat me really bad , always hit me for no reason at all , always telling me that I am a looser and that he's ashamed of me being his son , like one of the times I finished dinner , he asked me why I didn't say thanks for him making it to me and he kept on hitting me , other time I just finished my home works and went to sleep I was really tired , he woke me up and told me that's the only thing you do in your life you keep sleaping and don't study and he kept hitting me , after it the girl he was having an affair with started to come home and stay for the night to sleep with him , then she began to stay with us for a few days , then weeks , I complained about it and he hit me again , one time he told me to get out of the house so that they can spend some time together , when I said no he literately pushed me out of the house , I stayed in the streats intil it was 1 am and then I decided to go back , when I went back he asked me why I was late , and then again he hit me , when ever that girl doesn't like something I do she tell's my dad to do something about it and he hits me , I began to spend the entire day with my friends and away from home . Used to wonder in the streets for hours after school to avoid going back home , and when he asked me I told him studying with friends , then I got a girl friend , she was the only person who cared about me in the world , had no one to talk to before and always kept all of the sadness inside me , she loved me and supported me always no matter what and was always there for me when I needed her and I did the same for her and loved her much more than she loved me , for the first time in long years I could finally trust some one and get loved , after a year and a half I was with my friends in the park . I saw her kissing another guy . I took my freind's skate board and kept beating the guy . They had to push me back because I almost killed him . That night I didn't go back home . Was so frustrated , why go back to home to get hit by my dad , I stayed at my friends house for 3 days and then I went back home . I knew he would beat me to death but I really didn't give the any more , the moment I got in he slapped me and kept hitting me , my entire body turned to blue and she just kept watching , for the last 3 months my girl friend has been calling me and asking for forgivnes and I really didn't care any more . I had the idea of killing myself a few times but I got over it . I really need help . But I don't think can go to a therapist because of my dad of course ,
