Why do I feel like I'm losing my best friend to someone and how do I deal with it?
Okay, so me and my best friend met 2 1/2 to 3 years ago and ever since the beginning of the 6th grade (we're 12 years old) and since the new girl came to WMS in Maine, she been brushing me off her shoulder lately like when I really HAVE to talk to her about something important she just seems to be brushing me off her shoulder and talking to her "other" friends again. Ever since that time I started hurting. She's kind of been ignoring me and it feels like its killing me inside.
She's been ignoring my texts and calls lately, she's almost COMPLETELY stopped talking to me and every time she's done that, it makes me feel alone and like everyone hates me and that it's like I don't even exist, like I should just leave this world. She doesn't understand the freaking pain I've been going through lately. She doesn't know how it hurt breaking up with someone you loved for 3 years and losing a 48 year old grandmother to alcohol. To me, it hurts losing my best friend to someone else. We always use to have sleepovers together.
I wish she knew how I feel. I'm bullied, she's not. Sometimes she gets annoyed with me I guess and just doesn't talk to me for the rest of the day. I practically have to YELL her name to get her attention. When I really need her support she's not there. But when she needs support I'm ALWAYS there for her. Ever since I got depression, I feel like she talks to everyone else, except for me. Sometimes I wish she could see she that she has more than one best friend. Only the friends I have that actually talk to me are there to support me. How can I deal with something like this with depression going on in my life? Please help me.