He I just want no why everythin I do it bad, I was in a relationship with my ex for amost 3 years he try me we stop talking on October, then I start a other relationship with my long time friend, but on February I sleep with my then now I went to Dr. he told me I had ghnoria, now my boyfriend is upset with me cause I lie to him thing just not the same any more now I feel like I a bad bad person cause he a real Good Guy treat me like a Queen I should't do that to him now I don't think he would ever trust me any more, now I feel like the only solution to this problem is to just kill myself and get it over with cause I pray and ask God for strength it seem lik even God hate me to even God turn his Back away from me no one understand what I'm Going through

So being dead solves anything how ?

So you screwed up with a boyfriend, who may or may not ever forgive you. Guess what, there will be another boyfriend next year or next month.

God is there for you, but God also does not promise there is not a price to pay for out actions. He will forgive you, but he does not promise man will forgive you.

So you learn, get treated by the doctor and move on in life.

Your post makes me sad, you sound so very young and simply have to wait for the solution to arrive. Since you are asking God for help, it is best to wait until you "find" His answer. This is something You have to look/wait for ~ so get over the instant gratification element. Taking your life will not get God to answer your question, go and physically exhaust yourself doing something constructive and when you are too tired to stay awake, find your answer in your dreams ~ REPEAT. Remember, this will not happen right away; and please reply.