My spouse committed suicide 4 months ago we had started divorcing we went to court on Friday he took his left the following Tuesday he had kicked me and the 2 kids out of our home (we were married 17 yrs) moved a girl in our home he knew 3 days he left for afgan he was home less than 3 weeks when he took his life when he did so he wasn't wearing his glasses - he had drove the car connected a hose and passed away in my dream he said I can't see without my glasses any ideas

This is more about the supernatural than it is about bereavement.

I think you are trying to read meaning into something that is meaningless.