Can anyone help me?. (Severe depression)
My name's.. Well I don't really want to say that on here.. I'll just get it over with.
I'm sixteen, nearly seventeen, and I'm facing an extremely harsh onslaught of depression.
My parents are divorced- rather my step-father and mother are divorced, my real father lives in New Jersey and I've only met him once.
My head has been buzzing the last few days. I feel like.. I wake up heavy. I feel worn out, old, and I'm only sixteen. I legitimately would like to see, just one person, just one, care.
I feel beyond pathetic writing this. I mean hell it's the Internet isn't it? Not the best place to share this stuff.
My school counseler doesn't do crap. She's basically as good as the type that goes, "And how does that make you feel?.."
"Depressed, you pathetic excuse for a psychiatrist."
The above statement isn't actually something I've said to her. I'm too conscious of my actions for that.
I'm debating suicide. I'm not calling a hotline, I don't have a phone. I'm not poor but I'm not well off either. I have decent grades. I broke up with my girlfriend of two years after learning she's been flirting with guys heavily. The one girl I actually find myself caring about is basically a social recluse and considers me a brother despite being her first male friend.
I'm not ugly, I'm actually pretty handsome, and that's not vanity speaking, just self-awareness.
I need help.
I need someone to talk to.
Even if it's just on skype, I've no-one in reality. I legitimately considered suicide tonight.
That's the only reason I'm posting this..
Please help..