Is it wrong to not want to live? Not depressed, not sad, just over it.

I built my own business and literally never have to leave my apartment to make thousands a month. But I don't care anymore and I find it hard to even do minutes worth of work to keep my business going.

For the past 3 months I haven't left my room except to go to the door to get my mail or food delivery. I just play video games all day and then go to sleep.

I don't drink, although I used to in my very social days. I don't do drugs although I've tried them all... just never saw what everyone else saw in them to continue using. I've never had a significant other, I completely fail at the opposite sex. This used to bother me but I don't care anymore. I think my grandfather died a few weeks back, I haven't been answering my phone or responding to any messages. I'm sure there was a funeral but I just don't care. Writing all of this would have made me cry in the past... but as I'm sure you've guessed it I really just don't care anymore.

This apathy towards everything is ruining my business I built, my relationships, and doesn't help my future. But I don't care. I just want to silently die... but I can't do that as I would devastate my friends and family for at least a good 2-3 years before people started getting over it and my mom probably never would get over it. A death is such a burden, I remember how I felt when one of my close friends died and I'd never want other people to feel like that.

I was naïve. I thought life was exciting, was fun, and the fact that I believed that made the present day feel exciting and fun.

I don't believe that about life anymore. I FEEL like I've seen it all and done it all. I KNOW that I haven't seen it all and done it all, but I just don't care to anymore.

I just simply don't want to live. The worst part of my day is when I wake up, realize I was dreaming and that now I have to live it out.

I want to be that innocent, naïve, everything is OK person again. But I know too much, I've seen too much, and I just don't care anymore. I'm 28, and I know that may be relatively young for someone to say they have "seen it all" but

OK I'm over writing this

In answer to your question, "I don't want to live anymore...do I need help" the answer is obvious. Yes, you do.

In answer to your second question, "Is it wrong to not want to live? Not depressed, not sad, just over it." The only way to identify with it being 'right' or 'wrong' not to want to live, would be making the decision to die, if there was no hope. Such as a terminal, painful disease that has taken the choice whether to live or not, away from you.

You don't seem to be in a 'situational' type of depression, where you are temporarily depressed over the loss of a relationship for example. You offer no clues what has caused you to be in this frame of mind; only that you are, and have been, for a long time.

I don't know if being depressed has been a part of your life, longer than the situation you find yourself in now, or whether you have ever been evaluated for depression, and/or mental illness in the past.

Either way, you need to see a Doctor. Bring a copy of your post, and tell him, not ask him, that you need help to overcome this situation you are in with feeling depressed.

To make just that effort, which will give you some hope, and help to change your life, is worth it. Just that one step could make all the difference in your life.

It doesn't sound like you can overcome whatever is causing this, on your own.

It's none of my business of course, but as long as you are reachig out on the internet.. I think you still want to live. You just lost your purpose, and finding it should keep you going. Most people are like this, me very much, so I calm myself believing in the previous statement. Someone overthinks it, and that is not always healthy. You are probably very lonely right now, and that is understandable, to find a person who would really make you feel important in this life, important enough to make you want to leave, if you lost all the other reasons, is not an easy job. I guess that's called true love or may be sincere true friendship, which is hard to come across, so I don't think I ever knew what it looks or feels like, but surely there must be someone outthere to know it. So, I guess, even if today you feel like there's nothing for you in this world, try to make finding something you still haven't experienced your purpose to stay, and wake up everyday. You obviously still care for all you friends and family, so you still care, and you can care and feel more. Take an easy start, wake up early, get out of your place, go outside, go to a park or countryside, a forest, whatever suits you best, embrace the freedom that nature makes you feel, embrace your unity with it, and try not to think far away. Call your friends, or just go to a nice crowded place and meet some people, enjoy whatever life can offer you. Make a list of all things you think a person, who is to die in several days and has no choice over it, would do in his/her last days, and try them. There certainly should be something outthere for you and someone, someone great and deserving, who might not find the happiness without you. And I know it wasn't your decision to be born into theis life, but it is your life, and you won't get another chance to live it when you feel like it, so just make it work. Mainly, because you can, and because if you don't want to feel like you do know, you can change it, and when you do, life will make you love it and never want to stop living it.

Yes you need help. Go to a doctor for help. Whatever you do, do not end your life. Just think. There is someone that is loving enough to help you. And not just a doctor. That someone is god. If you're feeling lonely or sad, pray to him. Talk to him. Also go to a doctor but always love god and have faith in him. He always has a plan for you. <33333

Today is the first day I have reached out on the internet for help because I have been thinking of suicide for several months. Your comments touched me more than any others. My situation is not the same as yours but my feelings are. I have been trying to come up with any way I can think of that would not look like suicide so that my family would be able to get my life insurance.I have several medical problems that cause constant pain. I am sick of the pain an feel like I can no longer live with it. I have 4 children. 2 are adults. 2 are still at home and I am raising my 7 year old granddaughter. I also have a large family who love me very much. My heart becomes very heavy when I think of what they would go through if I committed suicide. My father died suddenly 2 years ago. Trust me that is something you NEVER! Get over. Please keep thinking of your family. Your suicide would affect them for the rest of their lives. If you can find the energy get out of your home. Short amounts of time at first. Being outside is the only thing that makes me feel any better. Once you can do that plan a trip. I realize you are alone. Come to Arizona. I will meet you and spend time with you exploring this glorious state. I am 51 years old and not looking for any kind of commitment I just want to share some things that you may not have seen. My email address is [email protected]

You say that you don't feel depressed. However, you have all of the symptoms of a clinical depression. No wanting to leave the house, not caring. You really need to call your doctor immediately before it gets worse.
Jane

I am 64 and feel the same way as the person who does not want to live.
I still looks pretty good for my age... lost a good job and work from home most of the week for a lot less money. My life is a constant financial struggle. If not for my children and grandchildren I would get it over with but do not want to hurt them. I am sooooooo tired of struggling.
I came upon this web site when I did a search to see if when people are just tired of living if there are physical changes that bring on their death.

You have 2 problems, both of which if you approach with the same determination as you did with your business, you will succeed. Your history tells me in spite of your feelings you have had many successes in your life... Your success story can continue, with the last frontier you have now approached... the battle of you against you... you can win.

In the meantime you need to address the most urgent issue, which is you have let yourself go to far down and you will need in the short term medical help to get you back up on your feet. You are currently in a state of depression and once you get stabilized by a doctor, your psychology will clear up. If you want to win the battle of you against you, then first put yourself in a position of winning, by accepting that you are depressed, and knowing you will feel differently once you are out the depression. Short term help without a doctor can be had at your heath food store in the form of 5HTP, but please see a doctor and know that you will get better. Of course in the long term these feelings will come back but in a very manageable way when the depression has lifted... then you can proceed with your plan to win yourself back again for you. Each persons path through this is different... some need religion, others philosophy, others therapy, but the key lies in forgetting yourself in the service of helping mankind and leaving the world a better place. It is in fact impossible to die, we are all born eternal, but in the short term that eternal life gets interuppted from time in time when the physical body is no longer useful and dies... we then go to a place of temporary rest, and later assume another body to continue our work till it is finished. We can then proceed to leave permanently and return home, as this is not our natural home but an animal kingdom that we have made a mess of and have to return the garden to its former state. Everyone reaches sooner or later the wall and only by changing state can we break through. You will succeed, don't waste your current opportunity to push into the unknown and find yourself. (this answer of course is a opinion as are all the others... pick one or all of them (integrated solution) and get busy... life awaits you.