Forgetting my girlfriend's past
Well I'm 18 years old and the person I'm with rite now is 23 and me and her have been together for a year already and its hard to forget about her past because its very nasty and disgusting and its very dirty because I was a vergoin when I met her and she was my first but then after that she told me about hr past which made me feel disgusted with myself because her ex girlfriend are all ugly ugly and when me and her were first together she started talking to one of her ex girlfriend and I found that messed up because why would she do something to me that she knows will hurt her if I did it ?I'm just really confused ad hurt ?I'm very insecure I admit but I'm really not ugly like I look like a model but I don't like it but she is just so nasty for foin those girl and I feel like she just used me like me and her are far distance relationship but when we are together we forget about everything and it pops up only once but when not together I think about it. Al the time and I tried breaking up with her lik 6 times but I love her and I can't but I'm just real hurt any advice plzz?I'm really hurt?I want to. Get over her past please help.