Last week I was with my girl and we were talking, things escalated then we were kissing and than, out of impulse, I reached my hand up and touched her shall we say "lady parts". I felt horrible and immediately pulled away and apologezed... for ten minutes. She said that she still loves me and doesn't see me differently but I still feel bad and its been a week. I know its wrong but I still wonder. Why didn't she stop me? Was she really ashamed? Am I really ashamed? I feel like I am but part of me likes the memory. Unfortunately it's the part most affected by the raging hormones of adolesence. Still though I feel terrible. Every once in a while the thought comes back and I close my hand. I don't know why but I do. My conflicting emotions have me confused. I feel wrong, I know its wrong, but I also feel excited (but not like that). I also can't tell if it really bothered her. I mean she was so accepting of it. Is it love or just lust?

How old are you ?

Knowing your ages and how long you have been together can help us give you better advice. I can tell you that it is likely very natural that, while engaged in kissing, that the impulse for more will occur. It is also possible that she was ready for a little more than kissing.

The thing here is to know the limits and we can't tell you where to draw the line without more info.

You are supposed to be confused about what your feelings mean and what to do about them. This is where you gain experience and learn what's right, and wrong, and set boundaries of good behavior for yourself.

I suggest you NOT get carried away by any of your feelings right now. Stay cool, calm, collected, and under control, no matter what situation you find yourself in. That will give you time to think of what the right thing to do is, and you won't have to feel bad, or guilty about making a terrible mistake, because you don't know what's happening.