OK, so I've been dating my boyfriend for a year and ten months. I cheated on him about seven months ago. I asked him to eat me out and he never did, so that night when I was drunk at a party, and I let someone do that to me... I think that was some of the reason why :( Its not an excuse I'm just saying...

The next day I tried to break up with him but he was about to cry and said he couldn't live without me... So, I never did. I tried to multiple times since then because I keep thinking "the truth will set you free." But, about a month ago I cheated again... I was drunk and I gave him a hj and that was it. I feel so guilty. But he's said before if you ever cheated on me I don't know how I wouldn't punch you? I'd be so angry... He only gets to hang out with me once a week and it makes me lonely.

He's told me before if we ever break up he'd never date me again. That is my biggest problem. I want to break up with him sometimes to be single and crazy but later on in life I want to marry him. Our relationship isn't typical love. It took us a year to say I love you because were not young dumbasses.

Should I keep the secret to myself and live on? Or break up with him and keep the memories? If I tell him my reputation will be ruined and a lot of people will hate me. I'm also going to live in the same building as him next year. WHAT SHOULD I DO?

It might be different if you had only done it once and had learned from your mistake but you sit here and admit to making a mistake a second time just recently. Being drunk is no excuse for doing something like that, it really isn't.

Why don't you do him a favor and break up with him before you go and do something like this again... because you know you will. I think that both of you will be better off.

Break up, keep whatever memories, and move on. Then he doesn't have to know you are a lying cheater, and you won't get punched in the face, and you can keep getting drunk and do sexual things with random guys when you so chose.

Problem solved.

OK, but I still have to walk with him at graduation and prom next month. Should I wait until summer and go to college single or do it now?