How to deal with grief after pet death
I need urgent help.
I've never really had to deal with grievance before. However today, one of my two hamsters died.
My beautiful little girl MelOn died today. It wasn't even her time. She was supposed to live 3 years, and she lived only about 14 months. I was about to give them treats and found her on the shelf. Her back side looked like she was giving birth, all open. When I had a proper look I could see she'd taken a lot of food that she hadn't chewed at all. It was all trying to come out. I feel like a murderer. Like there must have been something I could have done.
I can't even bear to get close to the cage. When I go to move her, I see her properly, as she's on the top shelf. Lifeless. Eyes half open, mouth open, paws up.
She was always the active one of the two. She would roll in her bath. She would come to the top of the cage to come and see me when she could tell I was near. She'd come and give me kisses. And she's never even nipped me.
My girls... Were the only thing I had that I knew weren't going to leave me. And now one of my angels is up in heaven...
What do I do? I can't bear this. Please help.