I'm in love with a straight guy?
Hi, my name is Michael I'm 22 years old. Well where to start... Ok so lets start from the beginning, I'm in the swimming team in my collage
That's where I meet John he is 20 years old and just got in the team. At first I didn't even notice him I have never been interested in someone from
My team I think its not professional. But any how the coach put us to practice water polo one day cause there was a competition coming on.
So John out of no where starts to ask me questions about some of the rules so OK no problem so I answer back and immediately he starts asking
Personal questions so I was like OK just trying to make conversation. The practice ended and we went to the showers and there he starts to talk to me like a lot! Days pass and we become good friends. Six months pass and summer is here one night we and our friends where all out having a good time and it got late and I was a lithe far from home and I was planning to stay at my friends "girl" house when he says to me no stay home with me that way you can sleep comfortable "i like to sleep in my undies" lol so I did. And that night I couldn't sleep all night! Having him by my side almost naked just made me super nerved. That morning I talk to my friend "girl" and I tell her I think I'm in love with John! And she started to scream and told me I think he is gay! He docent look it but he has never had a girl friend kiss a girl or nothing. (by the way my friend by coincidence studied with him in HI school) so yeah days pas and he treats me kind of special but every time he gets more close to me he disappears for a couple of days. Super weird I know, my friend tells me that maybe he is confuse of is afraid to come out. One year has past and I'm more in love with him than ever, by this time he has stay in my house I'm at his, you know like good friends. I'm afraid to tell him because I don't want to lose him as a friend, but one day I can't hold it no more and confess to him that I was bi and that I kind of have a crush on him. He smiles and tells me that he admires me for telling him and that nothing is going to change between us but that he was straight. Well to tell you the truth I didn't buy it! The look in his face reminded me when some one ask me if I'm gay and I say no. I told him don't say nothing to no one this is a secret not many people know about me and he says OK. Couple of days pass and my friend "girl" calls me and tells me that his brother knows about me I get post off and send him a message telling him that it wasn't fair that he told my secret to his brother when I told him not to. And that if what he wanted was to me to disappear then to tell me and I'm gone. He replays that his brother already knew about it. And we didn't talk for days one day I text him that I needed to talk and he told me to disappeared from his life and that I should not be messing with other people life I was choked to heard that so I try to ask him why he was telling me that but he just wouldn't talk to me. My suspicion is on one of his friends that was gel-us of us when we become friends but ho knows what happened or what some one told him that isn't true. Or maybe he is trying to ovoid me because he likes me I don't know but 4 month has passed since I don't talk to him and I'm still so in love with him I can't get him out of my mind! :( I have meet other people but no one makes me feel like he did. No matter how hot smart funny the person is woman or man I still think of him all the time. And I wish we could be at least the good friends we where. Now that you herd my story what should I do? Please any help would be of so much help :)
