How do I get over my girlfriends past?
Me and my girlfriend are going out since 1 year and I haven't been happier in my life this 1 year has been the best of my life and I love her a lot too. Before I asked her out she told me she hadn't ever had a boyfriend before and I was the first guy she ever fall in love with. When I told her for the first time that I love her, I told her that she is my first girlfriend and I hadn't been ever with a girl before or never ever touched a girl in any intimate way. I told her that I love her and she's the only girl in the world that I've ever said that too and that she's my first love. She replied 'i love you too and you're the only guy I've ever said to' and that I was her first love.
A few days back she skipped something out of her tongue that she was with this guy for 2 years but they weren't going out it was only a friendship. Later on she told me that she has talked intimately with him too and they went for a movie and hung out together alone a few times. I freaked out. She told me that she had said I love you to two other guys before me.
During my 1 year of relationship I loved her everyday more and she did too. I never asked her about her past again during that year and now she's telling me she had this fling. I have never made out with a girl except her she was the first one. I asked her again a few days back that if she has made out before me but she swore on me that she hasn't. I believe her but I'm at her for lying on the first day I ever said 'i love you' to someone. I always respected her for the way she had told me she was but now she tells me that she had a desperate phase on her. Whenever I try to get over her past she comes on telling me more stuff about her past that hurts me even more. I told her to open up and tell me everything at one time that I don't want to be behind a curtain anymore. She swore on me the last time we had discussed this topic that she didn't go out with this guy more than twice but yesterday she told me that she went this one other time too to a movie. I told her this is the last time I'm telling you to tell me everything that happened, but she keeps on repeating that I don't remember and that shell tell me stuff as she remembers it.
This topic kills me whenever I think about it because she's the only person I've ever loved. Thoughts like her making out with that other guy come in my mind and it kills me even more. What I can't bear is 'why doesn't she tells me all about it in one go?' Why make me go through this hell. I'm in love like hell but I don't want to talk to her for this, for lying to my face that she hadn't said ' I love you' to a guy before. What should I do :(