Hi Every one, I am 28 years old, happily married and earning a good salary working with a multinational organisation, been here for 8 years now, recently I am not happy about a lot of things, I tend to get angry and snap at people for every little thing, I feel depressed and feel that some people in the world are extremely lucky as they are rich and I am not, this thought is killing me, I decided to play the lotto several times but got nothing other than a few $ in return, I sure have lost more than I had spent. I want to become very rich and have been investing toward these goals and built up my net worth over time, recently I just want to give it all up and go away, maybe to a faraway land, leave my job and just settle down with my wife who I love more than anything and who loves me back equally, the thought of suicide has crossed my mind a few times, but then I feel that it is not worth it as life is beautiful, I go to church most sundays and contribute toward performing good deeds as well.. I am not sure what is going wrong with me, I have dreams where I see a lot of visions of dead people and although I do not believe in the supernatural, I don't think there is any other explanation for my thoughts and feelings. I have tried to introspect but it does not help, I am fine for weeks and then all of a sudden I get the same urge of screw everything and live in a small farm where I won't have to be a part of this rat race on the earth. Please help me!

You say you go to church most Sundays. My question is have you actually accepted the Lord into your heart and life or is it mostly something you do just because you think it's the right thing to do? Money will never satisfy that longing you have in your heart and neither will another person. The only one who can really satisfy you and set you free from your depression is God. I struggled with depression for years and thought of killing myself too! Then I met the Lord and slowly he began to heal my heart and set me free from pain and depression. It's not that he'll make your life perfect or anything but he will bring you an inner peace that surpasses all understanding and a joy that is greater than any other in this life! Once that happens he will have the freedom to move in your life and show you the right way to go. If you should stay at your job or move to a small farm away from the rat race. Also if you're struggling tell somebody and get them to pray for you! I'll pray for you today! God bless!
Here's some websites with really good teachings and encouragement:
http://churchinthemarketplace.org/
http://www.embassyonline.ca/

Hi Olive777,

Thanks for your reply and your prayers, I have accepted the lord into my heart, in fact when I went through a similar situation before, I made a pilgrimage to a famous shrine which brought me peace and I started looking at life differently, at that time I had met a priest who knew stuff about me which he could'nt have possibly known, he asked me to forgive and forget the atrocities committed by certain people, which I did in his presence and I did start feeling better, I just cannot express in words what I feel at this point, it is similar to the situation that I had faced before. I am depressed because - I don't know why! I have a nice job, a loving wife and a good family, I go to church, I like making friends and travelling. Not sure what is wrong with me. Thank you for your answer though.

Give up your good job and take your savings and go to that little plot of grass and a hut or live on a farm, where the rat race is just a different flavor and starts a lot earlier in the morning.

People DO give up high powered lifestyles all the time. Plan it, read what people do, think of your own. Dairy goats are big around my area right now. I hear that people in New York City are into raising chickens these days. Grow ginseng and sell it on eBay. Create a craft, learn silversmithing, who knows but you.

I keep my expenses down really low now that I'm 65. Doesn't bother me at all.

I don't believe in churches per se because they need money just to pay for the building and clergy and secretary and sexton and newsletters. If you want to give, do it directly. Take half your clothes and give them to the people who really live on the streets, because they don't even have access to laundries much less a place to store stuff. So do it twice a month. Underwear is always welcome because people forget to donate that. Buy McDonald's gift certificates if you worry that cash will go to booze. Hand out a whole carload of sandwiches.