Hi.. I am 19 yrs old but with a horrible pain in my heart since 9 yrs old. My mom and dad divorced when I was 3 and my mom re-married when I turned 5. The guy had no money no degree or even high school diploma and did drugs plus lived in his car.

So anyway years go by I am now 9 and while mom is in night school he comes over to me one day and starts molesting me:( he has done it several times between 9-10 yrs old. I decided when I was 16 during a heated argument with mom to tell her why I cannot stay inside my house for more then a few hours without having to just leave.

And she cried and swore to do something about it but instead she just made us confront each other about it and he turned bloodshot red and denied it all, so I became resentful towards her because I felt she didn't believe me otherwise she wouldn't be making us confront. So things with my mom and I have never been worse she is still with him and acts like I don't exist and she sits there and talk/jokes with him and completely doesn't care for me.

I am more then hurt and disgusted, I thought my soul would have been saved from this horror but its not. I need advice, not some weird or normal opinion, this has caused such disturbance in my life that for me and my partner to get intimate I have to warm up first and clear my head, this is something I normally hide well about me but I am breaking down :( help

Wow... I'm sorry you had to go through this. I had a close friend who went through something similar. The best advice I can give you is report that POS! He needs to pay for what he does and this may give you some peace and a little closure. As for your mom, I'm sorry... I have NO respect for any parent who choses a man/woman over their child. She should be ashamed of herself! Stay strong, keep your head held high... you did NOTHING wrong! Please, please report him!! Best of luck.

Well I'm 15, and have never gone through this, but have you tried to talk to your mom and see if she would listen to you and see how you felt? If you have and she doesn't care, I don't know what to say :/ if I were you and she didn't care, I would just try to live my life without her... I am truly sorry that you had to go through something like this... :/