Am I abnormally invisible and complicated or a normal decent person?
I'm a 22 year old girl... I'm so lonely,unloved and invisible... I feel nobody can see me... nobody has ever loved me althoug am a sociable person bt all the guys consider me just a friend or sister nothing more
I had a crush on several guys bt none of them had the same feeling towards me... Maybe am not beautiful but I have a pure innocent character bt I don't know why nobody loves me... I donno if there's this problem in me I don't know it...
Its as if am used to rejection and being ignored... I never felt the mutual love and romance
Everyone around me is loved I feel am odd and invisible... my father passed away 8 years ago and until now I miss him like hell... every day I cry for his absence... I miss feeling secure,safe and warm... I need a lover who would love me and give me all the feelings I lost... I sometimes feel pain in my heart,deep terrible pain... I feel if I stab my heart with a knife I'll be relieved... I've been hurt and rejected a lot in my life that I donno how it feels to be loved... Am I a normal person?