Confused! Can some one help?
I have been with my husband for 11 years been married 4. I don't know what his problem is but he is always accusing me of cheating. When we were only together for a couple of years we got into an argument and I went to my moms. He spent the weekend with another girl he made me believe that it was because I told him we were done and I went to my moms. I would have thought after a couple of years you would have more feeling for someone then to just throw it away. Then a few years had past and we finally separated so I thought I got my own place he would always come over but I had a boyfriend and he kept begging me to come back so I did. Then a couple more years past and we ended up getting married. The next year he seen that I was talking to some old boyfriends/classmates from high school on Facebook an started a fight with me and kicked me out. At that time he moved my best friend maid of honor in and I had found out she and him was sleeping together now this (ex) BFF of mine used to do everything with us trips and more. So to conclude my story. We have two kids and everything is in our name I am going to school full time and I don't know what to do sometimes I want a divorce and sometimes I feel like I still love him. But I just had a dream that he was trying to strangled me in my sleep what does this mean? I've left a few times and keep coming back. Last time even after what he did to me I begged him to let me come back. He is also very abusive mentally. Not saying that I'm perfect.