My relationship with my family isn't very good. Sure, we talk but it's just simple conversations. I get in fights with my parents most of the time. But,yesterday, it hurt the most because my mom said it.

I didn't get into boarding school while my classmates got into boarding school. I got straight A's but it's very difficult to get into boarding schools here. So, my parents found out and well, I didn't want to talk about it so that's when my parents stopped talking to me. Just now, my sister, who hates me, said 'Mom said that you're a VERY bad child and she regretted giving birth to you.' It's true cause I overheard them saying my name a couple of times. And I could see she wasn't lying by her expression.

I have my so called best friends, but I know they're using me and they're fake. They never care about me. Nobody does. I don't know who to talk to. I feel so worthless now.

Honey, I know you feel like everyone hates you. The people here don't hate you. Sometimes the world is such an ugly place to live in sometimes, isn't it? Has your friends given you a reason not to trust them? If they have, you should really try to make some new friends. Being around people who really care about you and who are there for you, no matter what!

Have you ever tried talking to your mother? Sometimes we think we hear things that we think are true or are factual to us, but it turned out that we misunderstood what we heard. I'm not trying to say that happened in your case, but it would be wise to talk to your mom. Tell her how you feel and what yout thought you may have heard. Can you and your mother have a calm rational open-hearted conversation together? If you can, that's where I would start!

It's a horrible thing to feel worthless but you are worth more to people than you probably know. The most important thing is to love yourself and to respect you! There is no reason not to. Have you ever tried to keep a journal to record your feelings? It can be a great tool. Keep it hidden from any prying eyes! It's also a great way to get to know yourself better. I have a poem my best friend gave me in a very dark time of my life. I'm giving it to you. YOu can replace the word God to whatever your higher power is...

The Self-Esteem Creed

God made me-I was no accident.
I was in God's plan
And He (or She) doesn't make junk ever.
I was born to be
A successful human being
I an somebody unique,
Definitely one of a kind,
And I love me
That is essential so that
I might love you too.
I have talents, potential, yes,
There is greatness in me,
And if I harness that specialness,
Than I will write my name with my deeds...

Sincerely From,

Welcome to this beautiful site, first!

Gemini Chick - I agree with what you said. (Your answer is HELPFUL)

Now, SF, remember, every person is whole, perfect and complete. Read the poem written by GC.

Talk with your friends, family and others. Write a regular self-diary, in which you record all your emotional ups and downs and reactions you get and you have for you. Try to mend the ways, not to please the people, but what seem really mendable. Hope, it helps!

You confuse frustration and anger from your family with hate. I don't think they hate you, they just get mad at you a lot, and as for friends, don't let them use you, and if they do they are NOT friends. Get some new ones that are better.

I think we all go through that bad time when everything we do turns to crap, and nothing is going right. Relax, it will get better if you NEVER HATE yourself, and be good to yourself ALWAYS.

Been there a few times myself.