I am really envious of my best friend. She is incredibly beautiful, tall and skinny, popular, and most acknowledged amongst my friends. I've even told her I was jealous of her. It helped a little, but it still hurts being around her. I've tried giving her gifts and wishing for her happiness. But then it just comes back to how much I hate how I look, how I act, my future plans, etc. I'm always asking myself "why do I care?" I'd do anything for my friend, but I feel as if I am not worthy of presence or I find myself competing for her attention. This isn't who I am but I find myself acting this way. I know I'm better than this, but when she's around I'm low and pathetic. She's always getting compliments on her beauty. She knows she's pretty, and that what I hate the most. I love her, but I can't help hating her (this is a result of my envy, I try to keep it in). What should I do? Should I stay away from her despite the fact my friends are her friends?

A "friend" does not make you feel that way, does she know, have you talked to her about it ?

I have talked to her about it, but it makes me feel even lower because of this demeaning feeling. I've heard telling someone you're envious of them reveals they may be jealous of you, but not in my case.

I was thinking what would I do, if I were in your situation... oh yeah, I have been there..
My close friend is a handsome guy, girls go crazy for him. Sometimes I have been jealous, yes, that can't be avoided. But I don't have to hate him for being handsome, do I? He has his own problems, break ups, and I have my own life.
The point is, don't depend completely on this friend of yours, you need a few more close buddies. Be independent, respect your friendship with her and cherish what you have. If I can get over it, so can you.