Hello, I am in real need of help to get my ex back. I hope you have 5 minutes to read this email as it maybe rather long.

I am Antony and my ex is Stephanie

I started seeing my ex, Steph in 2007, everything was great until a few months months after we started seeing each other. I found out that she was also seeing someone else, but I then found out this other guy was someone from her past. He was in fact a 42 year old man who had been raping my ex since she was 14. Steph was too scared to get out and did not really realise what was happening was wrong. When I found out I lost my trust in her for not telling me. This is when the issues started. I helped through court and finally got the guy locked up for 5 years. But during this time even though I loved Steph with all my heart I was a very nasty person.

I never hit her that I can remember but I would control her and scare her to make sure she never cheated or left me. But I cheated on her, shouted, got angry and hit walls plus some more things that I can not remember at this moment in time, if I didn't get what I wanted. I also was very lazy and never really took her out anywhere. I was very very bad. I still see her crying in my sleep and it is killing me. I can assure everyone that I am not anything like that any more. I went to counselling for anger management which did the trick now I do not get into any trouble anywhere.

Steph does not believe for a second I have changed even though I have done nothing since April for her think it. I do not just want her for our son or any other reason except I love her more then life itself.

I know who I used to be with her, but even though I did all that I did. I never once stopped loving her. I love her more now then ever now she has gone but all I want is my beautiful Stephanie back in my life. I miss her even after 6 months apart. I need someone to believe in me apart from myself that I do not want her back just to get my son back or that I can't bear to see her with anyone else or that I am ever going to do anything bad to her again. I know in myself I will never hurt her in anyway. Not now not ever. I will swear on my life that will never happen again.

We have a 2 year old son and it was when he came along I really changed, but we broke up when he was 7 months because she could not get out of her head all the bad I did before. She stopped me seeing Connor and stopped all contact with me for about 3 months. When we went to court over my son, she spoke to me for the first time. She stated that she had been thinking about me for the last few weeks and dreaming about me also. We got on for about 6 weeks but her ex boyfriend that she was seeing when we split up managed to turn her against me. We broke up again. For 2 months again no contact with her but her mother really wanted us back together so kept on going at Steph till she ditched her ex again and asked me back.

In this time I swore to god that I would not cheat of hurt her again, this I didn't keep to. I never hurt her that she knew about but we were not getting on and I ended up sleeping with someone else because steph seemed off with me and distant. I regret this now and the alcohol did not help seems it was my birthday when this happened. This was last November. I can admit that I was insecure about her ex as he managed to break us up once and therefore steph could not handle my insecurities again we lasted till this April 2011 where we broke up again. We have only kept in contact for our son this time but I ask her back and tell her what she means to me and that I am nothing like who I used to be. But she does not believe a word and even gone as far as to say she wouldn't care if I was dead and how much she hates me. I know that I can make her happy now I have grown up. But she just does not want to know. I would be willing to do anything to get her back but nothing seems to work. I have tried wishes, turning to god and even started Ouiji Board to find a spirit to help me get her back.

Steph has met A Man Ireland who she has flown over to see a couple of times and already tells everyone she loves him. This is killing me knowing that she has met someone else but being grown up now I realise it will happen and I do not show my heartache and told her to be careful and if anything didn't feel right to get in touch with me and I will be on the next flight out to get her. I don't just want her for this reason, its because I truly love her and think we are soul mates. I am kind, caring, loving and sweet now. It took steph to break up with me now to realise this. I have totally changed my life around and will never go back to my old ways. Please believe in me. I want her back for good not the bad things I put her through.

I have been reading up on wiccan spells to help me out. Does anyone know anyone who I can contact to help me out with this. Is there anyone out there who can help me out with this as I have no idea about it.

Would you be able to give me any guidance or help into getting the love of my life back into my life?

Anything would be much appreciated.

I am nothing like who I was. I have truly grown up and no that I would never do anything to hurt her again in my life time.

If you would like to know anything else then please ask.

I hope to hear from you soon as I am very very desperate to get her back.

Or would you be able to put me in contact with anyone at all who maybe able to help me, I do not mind how much it costs or how far I have to travel as all I want is steph and connor back. They are worth all the money in the world. Please help or put me in contact with someone who can tell me what to do to get her back, nothing is impossible in life, just meed help.

Regards Antony

Yeah hi sorry I stopped reading after the point where you said I didn't hit her.. Not that I can remember and I was very mean to her and I would scare her so she should never cheat on me.

Ok you.. Need to work on your issues she will be so much better off without the both of you I mean poor girl!
With all that has happened to her and all you can think about is what you want and how you can get her back.


Grow up! Kid get help with your issues and don't you dare get into another relationship until you solve them because you will be the one ending up in jail if you are not careful


As for the young lady in this I hope she finds a better person than you.
Well that can't be hard I mean my water Mellon could treat people better than you.

Oh I did read everything I know you have a child but the fact stays the. Same how many chances did you get? How many times did she take you back, she needs a bonk on the head but with what the poor girl has gone through what's your exscues?

An anger management class fixed everything? No more counseling?

How long have you been calm, cool, and collected?

This will seem harsh to you, but I hope you listen.

You haven't changed. You are still trying to control her and what she feels. She has no reason to trust you. Your entire post is about you and what you want and what lengths you are willing to go to get her back. No where in it is an understanding of her needs and desires.

Any self respecting Wiccan would not help you in the way you want help. No Wiccan I know would even contemplate trying to take someone's self control away from them. It is against their Beliefs and would cause them hurt to try. It shows how little respect you have for her and others that you would even ask someone to do anything to her and I do include your prayers and Ouija board attempts in the 'asking'.

You are talking about manipulating her into doing what you want and totally ignoring what she needs.

If you love her, let her go. Show her and your child that you can be a good father whether she is with you or not. Respect that she has moved on from being in a romantic relationship with you.

Anyone who says they will help you get her back is conning you and as manipulative as you are showing yourself to be.

Please read what you wrote as though someone else wrote it. Look at how it sounds to another person and how the attitude expressed in it doesn't speak of love but control-a desire to control her and a lack of control over your own emotions.

Think about what you have written here from her viewpoint. If you were her and went through what you put her through and then read about all the ways you have and are trying to manipulate her in to doing what you want, would you be scared?

I am going to be extremely blunt and say that if she were writing in about you and mentioned what you have tried to do to get her back, I would recommend a restraining order and limited supervised visitation until such time as you showed yourself to be more stable emotionally and mentally.

Please continue some type of counseling for yourself. Give yourself the greatest gift you can and allow yourself to truly heal and let go.

I will agree, your post was so enlightening it shows you are still very bad, if this is well, I would hate to see what you were like.

You are willing to do anything even magic to control someone else. How sad.

Be a GREAT dad, and continue to work on yourself, and let her heal from all the hurt and trauma you and her ex have caused her, and stop trying to get her back to ease your guilt over treating her like a piece of crap for so long.

Only through good orderly direction can you change the lowly opinion of you that you have fostered and earned.

Do this for the next 5 years, and when she has healed she will see what a great change you have made, and MIGHT reconsider her lowly opinion of you. It could take longer.

Following this plan to a letter is no guarantee of anything but a second look, and that's all you deserve if you do indeed succeed in making yourself a much better human being.

Spells and potents, and wishful thinking, will not help you at all, and only through following the suggestions of us all can you truly be a better person.

Its hard work, but will be worth it, and there are no short cuts, no easier softer way. Do it if you are serious, if not disregard, and leave her alone.

Good luck, and get busy.

I'll say one more thing on this subject you use the word LOVE a lot. Yet your action are nothing of love!
Only that of lust and jealousy.

You seem to not remember much, I am going to wonder if maybe you have a bigger problem with alcohol than you write about in here.

For starters, before you can be happy at the side of someone else you first needs to be at peace and be happy on your own. You "say" that you have changed, that you have found the light, and that you are angelic now. But read at what YOU just wrote, don't you see that although you may have learned to control your anger issues, your mental state of mind is still messed up. I recommend to continue professional counceling, for being controlling, jealous, selfish, egoist, and to help you get over this lost obsession.

This is not love... the sooner you realize this the better off you will be in life, you need to back the hell off a girl that both you and the encarcerated ex has both done terrible (maybe no physical) but mental damage to.

If you were trying to be a good dad, this would be more understood, but for you to want to MAKE someone be with you and be happy is impossible, move on. She doesn't want to be with you, she has left the country and left with someone who probably treats her way, and you think she will still be mistreated because she made the wrong choices of being with crazy ex and you? No sir, allow her to leave her life, be a part of the KID's life, not hers.

If there is anythnig I can assure you off is one thing. This relationship is DONE.